Onward and Upward

Living in anger and victim mode is not my style. It's exhausting really, and I always feel like I want to take a shower to wash off the effects of being in what I consider a dark place.

I don't enjoy life when my outlook is doom and gloom, and understandably so I suppose. But alas I am human and from time to time my mind slips into that mode and although I can recognize it is not my natural state of being, I have no choice but to ride it out.

Happily, the cycle is over and I feel better than ever. Thank you God and to all of my family and friends who were so very kind in reaching out with words of encouragement and love.

I went shopping yesterday for Christmas decorations. It was so much fun. As the theme I had created in my mind started coming to life I could hardly contain my excitement. I'm not sure which was more therapeutic, seeing all of the beautiful items, or spending a ridiculous amount of money. Retail therapy is wonderful that way.

And the best part was that I could justify the expense, thereby making it a guilt free shopping spree!!!!

I have some new ideas for Christmas gifts and am actually looking forward to shopping, wrapping, and giving on Christmas day.

Today life is so good, well everyday life is so good but today I have the presence of mind to know this to be true.

Loving that God is patient with me and gently walks me through the highs and the lows.