Until that time comes let me just say they are beautiful, stunning actually, and can't wait to meet them.
This second adoption is very different from the first, much like a first time mother who is pregnant. As much as you want to enjoy it the first time around, you are so concerned about every particular thing that you can't just focus on the joy of the pregnancy...This is how I was with the first one. The unknown was all-consuming. Calls to our coordinator with questions were constant...But, now, we have been there, done that, and I truly get to just sit back and enjoy my "pregnancy".
I realize when my daughters come home they will be older, but for me I feel like they are tiny embryos in my belly and in only a matter of months my day of giving birth will arrive. I will meet them for the very first time, count their fingers and their toes, hear their voices and God willing the sound of their little girl giggles. I will feel their tiny little frames enveloped in my arms. I will kiss their foreheads, their cheeks, their little hands. I will look at them, taking in all that they are, and all that they one day shall become. I will, on that day, become a Mommy again. There is nothing more miraculous then this.
It is a pregnancy of a different sort, but a pregnancy none-the-less.
Thank you my amazing God for blessing me with two more beautiful angels, your precious angels, who are in desparate need of a Mommy and Daddy, Brothers and a Sister, Dogs and Cats, and endless, unconditional forever love. Thank you for challenging me to keep my faith and to stay the course that I "thought" was right, and that you "knew" was right, all along. You are my strength, my God, and I pray that you keep my girls safe, that you wrap your loving arms around them, and that you plant a seed in their hearts that assures them Mommy and Daddy will be there soon, and they will never again be alone.
Amen and Amen and Amen
