The nightmares...The dog-gone pre-travel nightmares that plague me each night ...
Last night was the worst yet...We were sitting before the judge and she was talking to one of the other families...It dawned on me that everyone had an envelope with paperwork in it, paperwork needed to pass court. I did not have the envelope of paperwork. I started to panic, and looked at Jimmy, who was smiling becuase he had no idea I didn't have this paperwork. He was under the impression we were minutes away from passing court and I knew that was not going to happen. My mind was reeling. I was trying to remember where the paperwork was, did I leave it at the guesthouse? was it in the van we rode to the courthouse in? I was rummaging through my purse, praying it was in there...And then it hit me...The paperwork was on the other side of the world, in my study, mixed in with all of the paperwork I had intended to file away but never got to. It was there and we were here and the judge was getting ready to ask us for it, and jimmy had that smile, and I thought I was going to die...I leaned into him and whispered that I did not have the paperwork. he thought i was joking and patted my knee "good one honey" he said. I started crying, and he realized I wasn't playing, and his smile faded, disappointment filled his eyes, then anger, he was furious, the judge turned to us and I woke up....
It is going to be a long two weeks...
